Dreams

Since I've been pregnant, I'd had really vivid dreams. One dream had my husband claiming he was Jeff Tweedy. Another dream had my husband wanting to be a polygamist. Another had my friend Erin as a make up artist and I was an actress playing Anne Frank but last night's dream had a message.

When I was in Omaha, something upset me. I won't go into details but it upset me so much that I haven't been able to get over it and it had to do with my mom. Last night I had a dream where my mom and I were sitting in my living room and she told me I just needed to move on that she's here for me and I don't need material things to remind me of her. I just need to look in that baby's eyes and she's there.

What a powerful message. I had to admit I cried. I was just talking to my dad about this incident that happened and he was telling me there was nothing I could do just move on but a message from my mom -- wow.

Did you have to grab some tissue for that one?

Moving on ... I am sad to say I can't go faster than 2.8 on the treadmill. I used to do 4.0 but that would involve serious strain on myself. I'm fearing this baby weight isn't going to go off. I told my husband that I'm going to start body pump after the baby is 6 weeks old because I'm not going to be a fatty anymore but 2.8 -- that's just sad!

Happy vday!

Random thoughts for week 22

We're interviewing our first childcare provider this week and my husband is on the defensive. He's scared to have anyone but one of us watch our baby. While each one of us are working with our employers to have one day a week at home to work, that leaves three other days of needing daycare. He'd like to stay home and work on freelance projects but I'm not sold on it completely. We'll see. He has an offer to work all summer filling in for someone on maternity leave but part of him wants to stay at his job because he likes it so much.

I feel like I'm studying for college lately with all the reading I've been doing. I've started to switch my reading from pregnancy books to being a parent books. If anyone has suggestions, let me know. I want to see what our local library has so I can get them reserved because I'm not going to buy a bunch of books unless they're highly recommended. I know am getting two parenting magazines in the mail along with my usual Sunset and Real Simple Magazine.

I'm really into eating sweets and I know have to stop. I can't stomach veggies one bit so I'm trying to switch from eating cupcakes and zingers to fruit. It's working so far. I'm still into pineapple chunks.

We are getting a lot of cool gifts and my Bend friends are prepping for a shower in April.

I'm starting to get uncomfortable though some say I don't look pregnant yet. Someone told me that I look fat rather than pregnant. I get winded easily and can't walk as fast. I'm tired by 9 p.m. and if I stand on my feet for a long time they hurt. My wedding ring is giving my finger a rash and when I get overheated, it gets stuck so I haven't been wearing it.

I've been going to deep water fitness twice a week. I'm trying to add two days of walking in. I would love to add yoga but paying $15 a week for Juniper when I have a gym membership at the Body Shop really doesn't make sense .. right?

My dad is visiting in a few weeks (we think). I should put him to work and have him put together his grandson's crib.

Not looking forward to doing the taxes though we have some big deductions with our home interest and property taxes. I am pretty sure I overpaid our estimated taxes so we'll see if we owe or have to pay in or break even. I have to remember to pay estimated April 15 for 1 quarter.

Though my best friend is moving in two months, I am reaching out to others. Bend is a hard town to meet people. I'm glad for those that have reached to me. We also should all get together and bowl more often.

I think that's enough rambling. I have reading to do and meatloaf to make (MEATLOAF SANDWICHES YAY!!!!)