Thursday, February 14, 2008


Since I've been pregnant, I'd had really vivid dreams. One dream had my husband claiming he was Jeff Tweedy. Another dream had my husband wanting to be a polygamist. Another had my friend Erin as a make up artist and I was an actress playing Anne Frank but last night's dream had a message.

When I was in Omaha, something upset me. I won't go into details but it upset me so much that I haven't been able to get over it and it had to do with my mom. Last night I had a dream where my mom and I were sitting in my living room and she told me I just needed to move on that she's here for me and I don't need material things to remind me of her. I just need to look in that baby's eyes and she's there.

What a powerful message. I had to admit I cried. I was just talking to my dad about this incident that happened and he was telling me there was nothing I could do just move on but a message from my mom -- wow.

Did you have to grab some tissue for that one?

Moving on ... I am sad to say I can't go faster than 2.8 on the treadmill. I used to do 4.0 but that would involve serious strain on myself. I'm fearing this baby weight isn't going to go off. I told my husband that I'm going to start body pump after the baby is 6 weeks old because I'm not going to be a fatty anymore but 2.8 -- that's just sad!

Happy vday!


Jen said...

I had (and still have) dreams about my dad. And whether it's "just me" or "for real"... I see a lot of his spirit in Stinky. (Poor kid! :P) If nothing else they are cut from the same cloth. There is this look he gets, and then it feels like Dad's watching me through Stinky's eyes. Sometimes it's creepy, but in the best possible way.

As for the gym - your body is changing and that's OK! It will change again after the baby, but it will probably never be the same as before. My only advice is to stay as healthy as you can. The better shape you are in when the time comes, the better things will go in the long run. But don't stress out over it, it's just not worth it (and it's unhealthy)!

And for the record, I think you look great! Just the way a healthy, 5-6 months pregnant woman should!

Keeneye said...

I love that your mom came to visit you.

My dad hugged me once in a dream, and when I woke up, I swear to God he was still hugging me. I couldn't move for a good five seconds because his arms were pinning me down. He had just told me to move on, just as your mom did, before he gave me that hug.